What you are!

You know what is a fraction of a fraction,

your heart is,

Colder than the deepest cold,

your more like the reciprocal.

price you pay depends on 

how much words are worth 

how much you sacrifice to be in my life. 

If its nothing i more I know that you are worth it,

you may not be flawless but way more than perfect.

What your body is!

You are more of planet than this earth is.

Each second by second i live in you.

Each breath i take i breathe in you. 

I will never abandon such a paradise.

Now and then I want to reach into your core. 

Just to know to know what you are made of.

I guess if I nurture you, we bond more and that makes love.

I guess if i explore inch of your body, i will discover 

every part of you, from your mountain tops to your 

deepest cave. 

True confessions are told through the eyes, for every blink and shutter a new truth is told, while the tongue tell all the lies. We deny ourselves of our true insecurities of the ones we make and not the ones we hold. For the ones we hold are easy to let go and the ones we create will always tend to stay. These are my thoughts to be exact on this very day of acknowledgement, just to notice that i am happy when i look in the mirror, but insecure when i think of myself.

2013 Jans C Reynoso

“Whats wrong about society is that we say we hate more than we say we love, the solution is that we must love ourselves everyday to love others more”jcr03

My version of the poetic sense of powertrip

She got me up all night. 
Reminding me of all these love songs.
She got me up all night.
Writing up all of these love songs.
She got me up all night.
Breaking down these love songs. 
She said this was her first time ever,
feeling so connected with every word from this 
love letter. 
Being told every time that they can love better,
without any ounce of truth,
but she told me i was different,
and while others only gave close to a half, 
you were willing from the beginning to give every ounce of you.
and I told her she was more than what I expected,
Beauty wasn’t the only thing that took the all credit,
other girls just gave me alot of pain and headaches.
But im glad to give you my all beyond the four walls,
not part of me i have to embellish.
Would you believe me if i said i was in love.
Baby i want you to want me.
Would you believe me if i said i was in love.
Baby i want you…..
to believe that you are falling in love.
If that is enough.
If its enough than i guess you deserve to be on a power trip.
I fuel you with that energy you need from me,
so that any situation your heart faces your love for me overpowers it.

Getting to know me more

I can map out 95% of the people I know….I know what makes them mad, happy, disappointed, e.t.c. I can close to accurately predict the type of choices they make in food, fashion, and partners. Thats how you suppose to know people (your friends) aint it?

I mentally build a probability chart based on peoples actions and words to determine their credibility, truthfulness, and future decisions.

I am totally known for how mysterious and random my personality is!!! I hide my emotions behind a social veil only showing what doesn’t make me vulnerable. The only way to know me at full capacity is if you show me that you are willing to do anything to touch my heart or at least come close to it. Am I predictable……. yeah to a certain extent i am!…..i share many qualities with alot of people and have very few dislikes. 

When you left the idea of me being alone

i thought i was the only one that couldn’t cope with it,

Damn we had a good time while it lasted,

kisses never change until this day my feelings is no different.

I hope my time solidify some sort happiness in you,

to the point that you happy you still have feelings for me and you do miss it.

I never treated you bad so what was the reason why you left?

but i knew what you still suffering from the past, and the present.

Kill the moment,

I want to make you feel so alive, 

Polygraph my heart so you see im the truth

Never mislead you ill never tell you lies,

I dont want you to waste those tears,

unless its out happiness I dont ever want to see you cry.

Watch me tear my eyes from my skull as if i was in need 

of sight, to soothe the pain i would just sleep on the contours of 

your heart as it turns night. Let your heart bleed into my veins so that i can say

that i keep every ounce of you in me, not just in thought, but in memories.

Say that you love me, so that the sounds that each syllable make a note

that turns into a lullaby that only the heart can hear.  Even in pure silence i

am at awe by how much of your voice fills the void of sound that surrounds

me.

Im fresh to death. Thats why you will only see my date of birth on the my tombstone in the cemetery

loved u once

I can see it in your eyes,

a glare of loneliness and sadness

i know you once had the world that you wanted now ended so tragic

I as-well loved you to the point that soul no had room to breathe

and my heart had no reason to break yours.

But….

The lack of your attention created a disorder

within my affection, to the point that i denied my own reflection.

What made me beautiful, which once was your words, now served

the same purpose of our disconnection.

What you’re forgetting and don’t want to remember is that, 

i once was what i am now, so i never changed,

 it became mundane for you having whats good and grew tired of it.

So you searched for what was bad for you,

so within another you found temporary happiness, 

until the absence transformed me into your void of what you always had.

You came back to me with guilt after the fact.

First time in our life I made you mad is now when i told you love whoever the fuck you want, but your heart suddenly translated what i really meant is why would you fucking hurt the person you need and believes in you.

Never bite the hand that feeds you,

never stab the heart that needs you,

never hate the thought that loves you.

Never bury the person who puts you above everything else.

have you….
ever devoured your soul,
and after want some more.
ever loved yourself enough,
to cease the hate you once ignored.

poetry shorts(RNY): Love and Agony of Hope

You can laugh at my tears,
Torn hearts,
no dreams,
shirt tee,
no sleeves,

shades of me (The way i see myself:jans)

Some days i hide within the shades,

the shades of blue,

and i say to myself that its up to me to see life in 

the shades of white.

But life isnt as perfect as we want it to be. 

When everybody but myself can only understand the

shades of me.

The shades of me.

The shades of black cloud my mind within misery. 

The shades of yellows as i wake lives in me. 

But im surrounded by these colors,

while im blinded by the others,

Saturated and contrasted by my emotions.

So I bleed my eyes.

Only to see the true colors inside. jcr 1029revised

Im sorry if i tried to hold on

I am sorry,

Even if i never say it, 

Even if i never think it, 

Even if You feel 

like my words and emotions aren’t real. 

I guess I do wrong and then followed by your anticipation.

I didnt know that lies would run us, 

but think about lies even ruin nation.

At least I know whats the hates for!

But im not sure what weighs more,

the amount of love i had for you 

or

The amount that i gave up of me even though you wanted to take more.

I am sorry but i knew the truth,

that you wasn’t meant for me,

as much as I was meant for you.

and I knew…. 

jcr1012

To understand life you have to know two things the reason why we must laugh and why pigeons exist. What do these two things have to do with anything you will say! Well let me explain my unconventional logic, but first i will tell you something that will throw you off, consider that fact that there is more ways to burn than by fire!!! How? Well the term that we call over freezing of skin is called a cold or frost burn. Now back to the first reason, why we must laugh? because sadness or any other emotion that does not bring self satisfaction will cause you to restrain from living a normal life and constantly living with fear of living and properly enjoying life as you should and even affect the life of others. So find a reason to laugh or be around someone or something that makes you laugh more. Second reason is why pigeons exist will for most part they just do, fly around as they please with one purpose to shit on you, your car, your house, your food, etc…. because they don’t give a shit all they want to do is fly in peace and tranquility, they don’t even notice what they did, while they ruin your day with that one drop it made theirs which makes them happy and carefree, the way we should live!!!